I have decided to give myself a break

I did really well going from 182 to 122 pounds, and if I gain a bit during winter, not such a big deal.
I will make my maintenance weight between 120 - 130 pounds and not beat myself up so much.

or do I go in this direction?

http://www.computerpower.ac.nz/uploads/downloads/PDFs/CoursesNZ/NZ_BusinessSystems_new_feb07.pdf

Designing websites
Database building administration and management
Create an e-commerce enabled website - with electronic customer ordering
Learn Java - creating applets and event programming and GUI applications

decisions descisions

something to ponder

Found my stream :-) I think, for now

http://www.computerpower.ac.nz/uploads/downloads/PDFs/CoursesNZ/NZ_NetworkEngineering_new.pdf

I get to play with
CISCO
JAVA and
C

get my MCP, MCSA, CCNA, A+ hardware and software, and also Network+

regarding "Don't you absolutely hate when...."

my earlier post
"Don't you absolutely hate when....

You know something is going to happen, you wish it wasn't, you wish you aren't right... then it does and you still aren't ready for it."

But its me thats changing. It is so easy to point at others but its not others, its my feelings and my thoughts changing, they are still the same people. For once in my life I realise to go further I need to pull away from the safe, and get on with living. Its me evolving again. Its scary but it feels right. And this time I have a loving hand ready to offer a hand if I need it.

In other words, I was floating down the river to my destination, scared of what I may find and for a while I have been stuck in long grass on the side of the river where at least I know I'm safe and am comfortable. Time to carry on down the river to learn and grow.

Better steady than going up :-)