To the parents, family and friends just starting out on this journey.
My sad moments were when firstly I thought my son was going to get an aspie diagnosis then the doctor said "Edward is on the spectrum and he is not mild", also he said even if Asperger's was still being diagnosed Edward would still be Autistic because of his lack of verbal and non verbal communication and his lack of comprehension. The reason why I fell apart is the thoughts that flooded my mind were of my darling baby boy being institutionalised and having to rely on minimum wage carers who if having a bad day could without consequence take it out on my son....... that was what I grieved for my baby boy. The first thing I did was educate myself as fast as I possibly could on how to make sure the outcome for my son would not be that horror movie playing again and again in my mind. ........ I have learnt so much since those days and those horror movies no longer run through my head of such a negative future, too much relies on my positive thoughts for his future. I have never grieved the son I was "mean't to have" I have always only wanted my child/ children to be happy. And even though Edward is delayed in some "normal milestones", he is far exceeding his potential in "atypical milestones". And as I have said to another child recently when the child said "at his age, I could swing myself", "Edward does other things better". This is when you learn that there is nothing to grieve, when you can accept your child for what makes them amazing. Big big hugs.
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